I told myself many years ago I’d never cry over my mother’s actions or lack of actions again…. And here I stand 24 years old crying to myself. I wish I could help Her but I can’t. It’s her life. So I will suck it up… Be strong and stop crying, for I am the only one who can hear my tears. She owns my worst memories and I still love her.
I feel like I am psychic ;-) I predicted a situation before it even happened… Thing was I spoke too soon. Bit my tongue and tried to not I over think a situation and complicate things…. But I was falling too hard too quickly and I couldn’t ignore my feelings or their lack of. In my heart I know they want something else and that something is not me. :/ better to accept it now. I live by the motto ‘don’t let someone mean more to you than what you mean to them’ and I’ll stick to it.
I’ll just drown my self on music and song… The only thing that’s never let me down and always been there for me:) Cheers to Music- my one true love!
soon. (by Nikole Herriott)
He even ruined wooden spoons for me:( I can’t help but think of him every time I see/use one.
:)
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… And I think of him :(
(Source: urbanguerillaz)
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THE SOLIDER THREAD - ANYBODY
Feeling like a zero, I’m a skeleton
You let everything dry up under the sun
I don’t need a savior. I don’t want a crutch.
You don’t give a damn, so I don’t give a fuck
That you don’t need anybody (you)
You don’t need anybody (you)
You don’t need anybody
When you say you love me, say you love me do
I don’t think you will. No, I don’t think you do.
Maybe you’ve forgotten how we came to be
Now I never feel like your priority
I don’t wanna put you back under the gun
If you don’t give a damn, just tell me; I won’t give a fuck
That you don’t need anybody (you)
You don’t need anybody (you)
You don’t need anybody
When you say you love me, say you love me do.
I don’t think you will. No, I don’t think you do.
(ZEALE)
You don’t need anybody.
You don’t need anybody.
You were so cool, oo you could bag plenty hotties.
At least you think so. You’re so obsessed with your own self that we both became a mess.
Now we’re just losing. Confusion oozing out of both our bodies. You could call it prostitution,
Cause I’m used up, body parts bruised up. Only way I’ll hang around here is with a noose up.
You don’t need anybody, not even true love.
And you don’t need anybody (you)
You don’t need anybody (you)
You don’t need anybody
I don’t think you love me.
Say, say, say that
You don’t need anybody (you)
You don’t need anybody (you)
You don’t need anybody
When you say you love me, say you love me do
I don’t think you will. No, I don’t think you do.
C’mon say you love me, say you love me do
I don’t think you will. No, I don’t think you do.
CRYSTAL CASTLES - NOT IN LOVE
I love this song sooo much :) Makes Monday so much better :)
I am such a fool. I promise myself not to ever let anyone or anything or any situation ever make me feel like this again. I will be okay. I can’t wait to get away. This is not being weak, it’s just the pain for re-learning a lesson already experienced. It sucks having to repeat but that is what happens when there are unspoken expectations.
Fly this girl has high as you can into the wild blue- set me free…. Oh, I pray. :)
At the end - I am happy. At the end- I am free. Where I am at is where I am supposed to be.
Very grateful for the constants in my life. I take them for granted a lot of the time but I hope they know how much I love… Appreciate… And LOVE them!
